Tuesday, March 30, 2010

2 Days And Counting

Tonight is wonderful. I had a healthy dinner, the boys are down, I am not exhausted and I am slowly but surly getting things done. I was going to go shopping tomorrow but it has been pushed back until Thursday. That is probably for the best because that gives me more time tomorrow. Thursday is going to be so hectic. We are planning to get everything for the house that day before we leave, we are supposed to have the car packed and ready to go for Friday morning, and that includes everyone's clothes laid out, snacks packed, camera charged, bags packed and in the car and boys semi ready for the trip ahead of us. If all of that is possible then will someone please wish me luck and add in a little prayer. But at least I know what needs to happen before we go. I have a small plan. 

The weight dropping is going fabulous..... I feel amazing (minus the slight bloating) and I so excited to be able to ware a belt with the pants I have or find another pair that fit better and in a smaller size. I do have in mind what I want for San Francisco and if it looks as good on as it does in my head I am so excited. I will write before we take off on Friday and let you know it everything that I have to get done actually gets done before we go. Yeaaaaaa for road trips and new adventures.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

7 Days And Counting

So we have 7 days until we leave for California. I dont know if its anxiety or just nerves but I have been having a hard time sleeping. Last night was good but tonight is a very different story. Its 4:30am and I still cant sleep. I am trying to get some stuff done in the meantime but I know I still need to get some sleep. I still have so much to do whether its tonight or this week. So I know that my weight dropping is for the right reasons. I know that right now I am thinking about the right things, I have my mind right and everything is going better then it ever has before. I have never tried this hard before but my initial goal was to drop some of the weight for our California trip. I knew that if I did I would be more comfortable, I would not hurt as bad on the drive and I could get something really really cute for the San Francisco trip. But the dropping is not going as fast as I thought it would or as fast as I wanted. I totally fell off the wagon last night. I didnt feel like cooking and everything is just so expensive these days that we just ordered pizza and I caved. I ate 2 and a 1/2 pieces for dinner and I didnt eat any veggie's or almonds or fruit. I felt really bad after and the problem was that the pizza really didnt even taste that good. It really wasnt worth it. So now after that and what happened when I ate a McDonald's sausage patty I think I will not be eating like that for a long time or if at all. I have never felt so gross. The things that tasted good before are not good anymore. I think thats what happens when you eat healthier for a while and then try to eat the other stuff. So now I know that I am making better choices and I think that that in its self is progress. I think I am still going to try to get something for our trip but I am going to keep in mind that I am not going to be that size for much longer. I do also have another week after we get to california. There is plenty of working out and eating right that can totally help while we are there. 

I have a long list of things to do before Friday well actually Thursday night. On top of all the packing and getting the car and everything ready I really wanted to make sure the house is clean before we leave. So I guess I better get to it, and see what matriculates.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Making Progress And Didnt Even Know It

So I guess that I have been making more progress then I thought I was. Yesterday we spent the day at a friends house and I weighed myself and I was so depressed because it said that I had actually gained weight. I thought to myself that there was no way that I had gained it. I could have not dropped any but gained? No way! So that night while we were driving home Jimmy asked if I had weighed myself there since we dont have a scale at home. I told him yeah but I didnt want to talk about it. He sad that he had weighed hi,self too and that the scale had to be off because 2 or 3 days before he weighed himself somewhere else and he did not weight that much. He is pretty good at estimating his own weight. He can totally tell if he has gained more then 5lbs. so I am pretty confident in what he is saying. So if thats true, and by the way I am going to find another scale and weigh in somewhere else but if thats the case that means that I have lost 7.5lbs. After hearing that I was more then happy to talk about the weigh in. I have to admit that I do really really feel a difference. I took my Capri's out of the dryer this morning and put them on (they are usually snug until they kinda stretch out) and they totally fit and I even had room in the tummy, the back of my legs, and the bottom of my butt. 

Concerning my commitments I have not done as well as I wanted to. The reason that we were at a friend last night was because Jimmy was getting the seat in our car fixed and he didnt get back to pick the boys and I up until 10:30 so I did eat later then 9 last night. I did walk extra yesterday but Monday I didnt. I am disappointed but I am looking forward to my walk tonight and trying to figure out something healthy, easy, and tasty for dinner. ANY SUGGESTIONS? 


Monday, March 22, 2010

So Off On My Dates....Also Update On The Weight

For some reason I was so off on the date. The last few days I have been having such anxiety about our trip. There is so much to do, so much to get together, and so much to get in general. I have been worried and getting so agitated with everything. I really thought that I would have no more time to drop any more weight. And with the size of the trip and everyone that we are seeing we need really plan and get it together and I was freaking out. I thought that we would be leaving for California this week on Friday, but we are not leaving until next week. So now after all of that worrying, stress, and anxiety I have nothing to worry about. We have a whole other week to get together. I am so relieved. I am trying so hard to drop weight ti feel better before we go and I think I am really making a difference but I have to just keep going. Some times I feel it sometimes I dont. I did however check the weight watchers booklet and on a points basis I am doing very well. I know the points to calories equivalent and vice versa so I know that I cant count points then I can count calories. I am committing to going on a walk once to twice a day from today on. I am planning on starting tonight after the boys go down. And I am also committing to not eat past 9 o'clock every night. I would make it earlier but with the boys and their bed routine it does make it hard sometime. Also I have had a hard time sleeping at night lately and when I stay up I have a really hard time with being hungry and eating late. So I am changing both of those things. That is my goal for the week and we will see how it all pans out from here.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Its Going To be A Beautiful Day

First of all Happy St. Patrick's Day to everyone. For some reason I feel like its going to be a great day and I felt the need to share. I am feeling so inspired about my weight. Jimmy is so good at pointing it out to me that I am dropping it and it makes me feel so good all the time. I think that he knows how hard it is for me to do this and when I started I talked to him about it and what would be helpful and believe it or not everyone he has totally come through. I feel my skin getting looser, I feel my clothes getting looser and even though its not happening as fast as I would really really like its happening. I feel like this just very well may be the time that it really happens and I stick it out. 

For everyone that doesnt already know we are going to be taking a road trip in about a week or so back to California to see some of our family and we are all so excited that I know that we are going to burst sometime soon. We are leaving on the 2nd of April and I think that we are going to be there about 2 weeks. We are driving so for the boys we are going to make it as fun as possible. We are not going to make it rushed or pressured at all. We are going to make it a real family road trip and I am so excited to see what happens. We are going to take the boys to the Monterey Bay Aquarium and I am stoked about that one cause I have not been in like YEARS. We are going to take them to San Francisco to see EVERYTHING, we are going to go to the beach, and more importantly then anything we are going to have So Much FUN!!! I am a little worried I have nothing ready, no itinerary, no plans except for those above, and nothing even planned about packing. There are so many things we have to do before we leave and so many things we have to get for the trip so my brain is on high mode. For anyone who knows me I am absolutely not a "fly by the seat of her pants kinda girl" so I have to get it all together but I am kinda ok about it. 

So wish me continued luck on the weight dropping (or shedding) and if you are on our very very long list of people to come and see we will see you soon. If your not one of those people remember we love you anyway and hope to see you as soon as we can.

Monday, March 15, 2010

I am now on day 14

Okay so I am on day 14 and sometimes I feel like I am making progress little at a time. My pants are getting bigger and I feel like I have more energy so it is definitely a better place then when I started.  Thank you to everyone for all of the wonderful thoughts and good wishes it is so much more encouragement then you could ever know. It is definitely a struggle but I am beginning to think that it is worth it, or going to be at some point. I am consistently working at it and keeping everything in mind. I think now about everything that goes in my mouth, every extra movement that might make a difference and everything else that I need to. I guess that it is an all the time thing and I need to get used to it. I have to keep my head on right and just keep going. I know that I will not make my goal but I am not going to stop.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Today Is Day 4

So today is day 4 and I think that I am doing better today then I have been. Last night for dinner we ate home made hamburgers that were grilled. I had no mayo, extra lettuce and tomato. Then on the side my wonderful hubby got me some cottage cheese with some tomatoes and lettuce. I have been eating breakfast and snacking in between. I have heard that the way to get rid of weight successfully is to eat all the time but to eat the healthy foods and try to move as much as you can. So I am making a conscious decision to move more. Jimmy and I did walk a little last night, and when we go somewhere we park as far away as possible. I do need to be more diligent about my exercise but we are definitely on the right path. I am thinking what else I can do to get it to come off faster. I need to see improvement somewhere and I am trying to keep my head while trying to keep going, and all while I am trying to change the way I think and act about everything. This is so much harder then I thought it would be. it is not just a decision about food and moving its everything!!!! So I guess we trudge along and try as hard and for as long as we can.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Trying To Stay On Top

I am trying to stay on top of this and I am trying to stay optimistic. I have a very hard time doing things like thins and I have concluded that this is the exact reason that I do not do well with loosing weight. My problem is this...... When I do not see that what I am doing is successful I quit and think to myself What in the hell is the Point? I am not eating anything I want and that is how I am used to being. I am not starving but I am definitely trying something new and I know that what I am doing is right but this just sucks. I want to get rid of this thing so badly and I want to change so so so badly but when I dont see anything I just want to stop. So how do I work this out? How do I continue doing this just keeping in mind that I want to be healthy and fell better. Now how bad does that sound really? I want to do it for the right reasons and for the first time I really really want it and know I need it but its the instant gratification that I am so used to. I am so ok usually with this situation just because it makes me feel better RIGHT NOW! So how do I find it? Any suggestions? Is there anyone out there? Oh well I guess I will try to eat and find something to do to move myself around and see if it helps. I know I need this and I know I need to do it for me so I guess one can only hope!?