Its Going To be A Beautiful Day

First of all Happy St. Patrick's Day to everyone. For some reason I feel like its going to be a great day and I felt the need to share. I am feeling so inspired about my weight. Jimmy is so good at pointing it out to me that I am dropping it and it makes me feel so good all the time. I think that he knows how hard it is for me to do this and when I started I talked to him about it and what would be helpful and believe it or not everyone he has totally come through. I feel my skin getting looser, I feel my clothes getting looser and even though its not happening as fast as I would really really like its happening. I feel like this just very well may be the time that it really happens and I stick it out. 

For everyone that doesnt already know we are going to be taking a road trip in about a week or so back to California to see some of our family and we are all so excited that I know that we are going to burst sometime soon. We are leaving on the 2nd of April and I think that we are going to be there about 2 weeks. We are driving so for the boys we are going to make it as fun as possible. We are not going to make it rushed or pressured at all. We are going to make it a real family road trip and I am so excited to see what happens. We are going to take the boys to the Monterey Bay Aquarium and I am stoked about that one cause I have not been in like YEARS. We are going to take them to San Francisco to see EVERYTHING, we are going to go to the beach, and more importantly then anything we are going to have So Much FUN!!! I am a little worried I have nothing ready, no itinerary, no plans except for those above, and nothing even planned about packing. There are so many things we have to do before we leave and so many things we have to get for the trip so my brain is on high mode. For anyone who knows me I am absolutely not a "fly by the seat of her pants kinda girl" so I have to get it all together but I am kinda ok about it. 

So wish me continued luck on the weight dropping (or shedding) and if you are on our very very long list of people to come and see we will see you soon. If your not one of those people remember we love you anyway and hope to see you as soon as we can.

I am now on day 14

Okay so I am on day 14 and sometimes I feel like I am making progress little at a time. My pants are getting bigger and I feel like I have more energy so it is definitely a better place then when I started.  Thank you to everyone for all of the wonderful thoughts and good wishes it is so much more encouragement then you could ever know. It is definitely a struggle but I am beginning to think that it is worth it, or going to be at some point. I am consistently working at it and keeping everything in mind. I think now about everything that goes in my mouth, every extra movement that might make a difference and everything else that I need to. I guess that it is an all the time thing and I need to get used to it. I have to keep my head on right and just keep going. I know that I will not make my goal but I am not going to stop.

Today Is Day 4

So today is day 4 and I think that I am doing better today then I have been. Last night for dinner we ate home made hamburgers that were grilled. I had no mayo, extra lettuce and tomato. Then on the side my wonderful hubby got me some cottage cheese with some tomatoes and lettuce. I have been eating breakfast and snacking in between. I have heard that the way to get rid of weight successfully is to eat all the time but to eat the healthy foods and try to move as much as you can. So I am making a conscious decision to move more. Jimmy and I did walk a little last night, and when we go somewhere we park as far away as possible. I do need to be more diligent about my exercise but we are definitely on the right path. I am thinking what else I can do to get it to come off faster. I need to see improvement somewhere and I am trying to keep my head while trying to keep going, and all while I am trying to change the way I think and act about everything. This is so much harder then I thought it would be. it is not just a decision about food and moving its everything!!!! So I guess we trudge along and try as hard and for as long as we can.

Trying To Stay On Top

I am trying to stay on top of this and I am trying to stay optimistic. I have a very hard time doing things like thins and I have concluded that this is the exact reason that I do not do well with loosing weight. My problem is this...... When I do not see that what I am doing is successful I quit and think to myself What in the hell is the Point? I am not eating anything I want and that is how I am used to being. I am not starving but I am definitely trying something new and I know that what I am doing is right but this just sucks. I want to get rid of this thing so badly and I want to change so so so badly but when I dont see anything I just want to stop. So how do I work this out? How do I continue doing this just keeping in mind that I want to be healthy and fell better. Now how bad does that sound really? I want to do it for the right reasons and for the first time I really really want it and know I need it but its the instant gratification that I am so used to. I am so ok usually with this situation just because it makes me feel better RIGHT NOW! So how do I find it? Any suggestions? Is there anyone out there? Oh well I guess I will try to eat and find something to do to move myself around and see if it helps. I know I need this and I know I need to do it for me so I guess one can only hope!?

I Think I Can

So I have this friend Melanie and she has done something inspirational. She has started a blog on loosing a 100 pounds. I do have friends that have lost amazing amounts of weight, and I have friends and family that have lost a lot of weight and then put it right back on so for a friend to do this at such a momentous time in my life has kind of impacted me. We as a family are at a time where we are making crucial life decisions and changes. So in honor of this time in our life and also the fact that a friend has started something, I am going to do it as well. I know that I have said in the past that I need to shed it and that I am going to but this time feels different. I feel different and my needs and wants are different. I have new reasons and new priorities. So have have my reasons, I have the will, and I have the drive (I hope). I think I can, and every time I put something in my mouth or think about it I am going to really make a decision. And FYI I do not say loose for weight, because when you really think about it when you loose something you do everything you can to find it and get it back. So from now on I am saying to shed or to get rid of because when it is gone I DO NOT WANT IT BACK!!!!!!!

So wish we luck, prey for me, send good vibes, tip your hat and cross your fingers, or whatever works for you but please think of me as I make my way on my new journey.

Thanks

I Am So Excited About This Weekend!

So this weekend my friend Pammie is coming to visit. I have not see her in a long time. It seems life forever. I think it was over a year ago that she came last. She has been busy and so have we. We totally need a trip back to California. We miss all of our friends and family there. Jimmy is getting very very home sick and wants to see everyone badly. I wish that money grew on trees, that an education is something that was easy ans cheap to come by, and that family and friends could go with you wherever you went. We have some friends that are moving out of the state and we are very sad. It seems like when one things moves on the next comes through but its never the same. On a brighter side this weekend is going to be way to much fun and I am so looking forward to it.

LET THE FUN BEGIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111

To My Valentine Happy Valentines Day

So another Valentines day has come and another year to love and celebrate everything about our life and our loves. I am so blessed to have the things I have. I have a wonderful husband that has overcome so many things in life and in our marriage. We have changed, grown and we are now learning to adapt. Even though life is never what it seems we know that as long as we try we can move anything together. We are hoping that all of our friends and family have a wonderful valentines day and spend time with the ones they love.


To my Valentine:

Thank you for loving me. Thank you for caring. Thank you for trying. You are my best friend and I have so much faith for our future together. We can be headed down any road at any time but as long as we are together I know that anything is possible. To my love, my life, my best friend, my valentine.

I Love You